Reframe

I have been blogging for about 2 ½ months which is kind of wild.  It certainly doesn’t feel like it has been that long…  However, in that time I have tried to navigate what this actually looks like for me.  It’s interesting because I started all of this thinking that I wanted to stay surface level, focusing on design, clothes, life and style, things like that.  But as I have continued writing, I find myself enjoying spilling my thoughts.  It has been relieving to have a place to write about anything and everything, not just surface level but things that I am experiencing,  thinking and feeling in the moments in which they are affecting me.  

I think many times, I put far too much pressure on myself.  But I’m not sure that pressure is even the right word to describe what I am doing… I think of these ideas and I think they will make me happy.  I see other people around me doing the same things and they do it one specific way. I find myself trying to emulate what everyone else is doing because it looks perfect or brings them success or something along those lines.  I know that nothing is ever as perfect as it looks but I have such a hard time getting sucked into what everything looks like and how everyone else is doing it that I lose myself  somewhere in the mix.  Then, I find myself feeling tired and unfulfilled because what I am trying to do  is not true to me and the woman that I know myself to be.  

Growing up I always had a difficult time staying true to my own personality.  When I would get  around my  friends or other kids, I would start taking on their traits.  I feel like this is a fairly normal process that children go  through  when they are trying to figure out who they are.  I find myself struggling with this even now.  Many times, I find myself trying so hard to connect and fit in with those around me, that I lose myself in the process of trying to build a new relationship.  But that isn’t me.  I want to be me!  And I want to let myself shine through in everything I do.  

It can be difficult for anyone to find their way in life, no matter the aspect of the search.  From staying true to yourself, to burn out, to discovering new aspects of life.  It can be a challenge sticking to the path that you see in front of you and the one that you want to travel down.  In starting my blog, I thought it had to be one way.  I have always wanted to have an outlet like this but I saw the way everyone else is doing it and I thought I had to do it one specific way.  But I am discovering that that isn’t necessarily true.  Granted, people love looking at beautiful photos, reading well thought thoughts and compelling words and that is absolutely fair.  However, that looks different for everyone.  We are all different people and have different strengths, weaknesses, desires, and preferences.  So, I am going to try to embrace that.  I am not quite sure what all of that will look like for me in terms of the blog but for now, I am going to try writing about things that I love.  Things that bring me joy and are deeper than just a pair of shoes or makeup.  Granted, I love those things and I am sure I will throw them in from time to time but I think I want this to be more than just that.  Life is hard and I want to document my experiences.  My hopes, dreams, victories, losses and everything in between.  And not only that, I want to share yours with you!  I want this to be a place where we can all feel inspired.  So with that, I am going to reframe all of this for myself and I am really looking forward to it!